Saturday was our orientation for Marathon training. We have a fabulous schedule and some great long runs. What could be better than our beautiful beaches and bay? I love San Diego. It is going to be awesome. I saw a bunch of people I know from last season, which was so exciting. I cannot wait for Track Practice tonight. Eric decided to train with me, but he will be walking and jogging, not running. He is going to use the jogging stroller and walk with Allison. We cannot use the jogging stroller for running until she is bigger and can hold her neck up.

Problem is…I ran on Sunday and my knees are killing me. I am so fucking huge and have no muscle mass anymore. I want to lose weight, but it seems like I am totally unmotivated to follow any reasonable food and portion control.

I am so worried that I am not going to be able to get myself strong again. I have never been this out of shape before. That bed rest killed me. My legs have zero muscle tone anymore. Being this fat makes it hard to move my body.

I have so many work-out outfits. Shorts, pants, shirts, tanks, singlets. I am too fat to wear anything.

It is easy Laura. Do not stick shit in your mouth.