Today was my first long run since June. I had a lot of things to do this morning and it was really hard to get out on time, but I did it. I woke the baby up and fed her at 6:00 a.m., then got myself together. Last night sucked buttholes (do you not love the visual imagery I am able to create for you?), because with my period gracing me with its presence every month now, I have noticed a decrease in my milk supply for 2-3 days. Sucks that I have to have my period while I am nursing. Sucks even more that Eric dropped the bombshell on me yesterday that he would require more milk from me because he wanted to take Allison up to his dad’s 45 minutes away today. That required 6 hours worth of milk. I was only prepared for 3 hours. I had total performance anxiety. I could hardly get any milk out. Plus, coupled with the cluster feeding, I did not have a second without child on boob to even pump.
Enough about my boobs and my boob tangent…
So, I was on time to Hospitality Point or Ho Po, as some call it. I got to warm-up, stretch, then off for a 40-50 minute out and back. My goal this year is to run without stopping to fuck around with my GPS, my watch, my heart monitor, or my IPod. I found that when things got tough, I was using fiddling around with that stuff as a way to stop. No matter how slow I am moving, I am not going to stop. That is what I did today and I felt great!!
I had a lot of compliments from other people because they were so impressed that I was already out running after a c-section two months ago. I HAVE to run now though. Try telling me not do something and it is almost a guarantee that I will do it. After being told to be in bed or on modified bed rest, try to stop me from running now.
My knees feel great now and I think it was my shoes that were causing me issues a couple weeks back. I am feeling really, really good out there. I remember how free I felt before and it was wonderful today; just as wonderful as I remember it being. It was so nice to be out there and do something for myself.
My goal is to run my marathon as fast as Oprah ran her 1994 marathon: 4:29:20 That is my goal. If I am not ready for it, FINE, but I am aiming for that. But…FOR NOW? Baby steps. Baby steps. I CAN do this.
Our running slogan for San Diego Track Club:
Now bid me to run, and I will strive with things impossible.
I am all motivated, fired up and irritating now.